I’ve spent the last couple of days thinking about what I wanted to blog next. I felt I wanted to share something personal or maybe reflect on marriage and love… I have so much in my mind and heart that I want to express on this blog that sometimes I struggle to decide where to start; and, despite the number of visitors going up, the feedback is still relatively limited, so I struggle to get a clear of idea of what you like and what you don’t like reading.
Thinking back to the reason why this blog was created, I realise that sometimes I fail to fulfil the original purpose I had in mind – finding an outlet for my wedding planning passion while my career path slowly takes shape. But, as more and more people read the blog, I’ve also started to find satisfaction in writing things that are useful, interesting and inspiring for you more than for myself. And so gradually, Linen & Silk Weddings has become what I never set out to accomplish – a wedding blog in its own right, aspiring to have hundreds of visitors every day, packed with dreamy real weddings and styled shoots, DIY features, competitions and product/service launches alerts. It is going to take a while before I get there, and please forgive me if you think I’m being overambitious, if you think I won’t succeed, or that I don’t have the skills. Maybe you are right, but I want to believe in myself and push this forward.
I do have one major obstacle, though. And that is – my first language is not English and despite a degree in media and communication and lots and lots of hours writing for my journalism course, I think it is fair to say that my writing will never be perfect. For instance, when, a few sentences ago, I wrote “a wedding blog in its own right” I had to google the expression to check whether it was ‘in its own right’ or ‘in its own rights‘. This type of mistakes puts some readers off, so it takes me quite a bit of time to write a post and then cross check that I haven’t made any major mistakes. And even when I have finally published the blog, often times I find myself rereading it and editing the grammar.
So I guess all I’m trying to say is – my blog is never going to be perfect, but it will be a true representation of who I am:
♥ A wedding planner, a wife and someone who loves God.
♥ A free lance project manager for a design studio and a traveller.
♥ Someone who lives with a chronic illness, but a fighter. Every day ensuring that my condition does not affect my life.
♥ A lover of plan B and C, to give me and those surrounding me the confidence that I’ve got it under control – because I really do, not because I say I do.
♥ A reader of Elle and Grazia and someone who consume a ridiculous amount of interior design magazines.
♥ I love photography but I don’t own a DSLR and I plan to buy one (any suggestions?). I also crave for a Polaroid.
♥ I flirt with fashion, but blisters on my feet terrify me to death, so regrettably I don’t wear heels for more than 2 hours.
♥ I love my hair but I have a constant struggle to keep it under control.
♥ I tweet, but not too much because I spend too much time trying to figure out how to say what I want to say without sounding like a foreigner.
♥ And I live in limbo. I love the UK and I love Italy, but I’m not sure where I belong… possibly, only in my husband’s arms?
So, if you’ll accept me as I am, I think we will have a lovely long lasting relationship. Will you?
What are the obstacles you face as you pursue your dream? Who are you at heart, and what things define you as a blogger, a woman, a man, with aspirations and dreams? I’d love to hear from you!